I immediately felt paranoid. How the hell had she gotten here? How did she know where I lived?
“How did you… how did you find me?”
“Find you?” she asked cluelessly.
“How do you know this is where I live?” I clarified.
“Oh, you sent me your address, remember? To get your stuff back to you?”
“Uh, right,” I said, still so confused. I’d never expected to see her again, let alone see her here, in the flesh, right in front of me. In the new city where I lived.
What weird twilight zone had I entered?
“And that’s what I did!” she said quickly.
“Huh?” I questioned, not even remembering what I’d last said. I just felt dazed. “You did what?”
“I brought you your stuff!”
I stared at her for a second, taking this in. Was this what she thought I wanted? For her to bring me my stuff in person? Hadn’t she known I’d just wanted her to mail it to me?
“Julia, you really didn’t have to do this,” I told her.
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“I wanted to,” she answered, “I really wanted to.”
What the hell did that mean? That she did know I didn't want this? And she just brought me my stuff anyway? I didn’t understand.
I sighed. “Julia, I just—”
And then, without warning, she leaned in to kiss me.
I was so shocked by the act that I didn’t pull away at first. I didn't like it. I felt absolutely nothing, but it felt like everything was moving in slow motion. When I did finally pull away, I wiped my mouth, disgusted.
“What the hell are you doing?!”
“Just… kissing you,” she mumbled.
“Julia, what the fuck?” I snapped. “What are you doing here? You didn't think I was seriously asking you to drive my stuff to me, right? You understood I just wanted you to mail it to me?”
“I understood,” she admitted.
“Then what the fuck are you even doing here?!”
Tears started welling in her eyes. “I miss you, Kaitlyn. I miss you so much. Breaking up was a horrible mistake.”
For a second, I felt bad for her. Because I could absolutely say that I did not feel the same in any way.
“Julia… I’m sorry you're sad, but—”
“I’m more than sad!” she answered quickly. “I’m heartbroken! I’m completely, totally heartbroken. I’m depressed. Life hasn’t been the same since you left.”
I didn’t understand any of this. “Then why did you never try to call me? Why the hell did you think it was cool to just show up here? I live hours and hours away from you.”
She shrugged. "I didn't think a call would make a difference. I thought you’d just brush me off, and I didn't want that.”
I rolled my eyes involuntarily. “You should have called, Julia. Actually, you shouldn’t have called, because it would’ve been pointless. But this is equally as pointless, and now you have to drive hours to get home.”